london and work

things have been in a mess lately. i think i have been focusing too little on work, with the resulting mess. i am planning for a business trip (from scratch) with a month to go, but half of that month will be spent holidaying in london. really well done. i will probably still have to check my emails while holidaying, just so i don't die when i am back.

to add salt to the wound - my bonus letter will be distributed in the week that i am in london. excellent, really excellent. the only way i will be able to guess how well i have performed is through the size of my e-payslip, which frankly will be as illuminating as me plucking an alphabet from air.

but of course there are other things, other distractions. and things are very complicated. it is during times like these when i wonder if i am a principled person, because what principles i claim to have seem to be rapidly cast to the corner of my mind when situations change. and this is greatly unsettling.